I'm back from visiting my best friend Alex in Bath! It's nice to be back in my own bed again, I shall miss her though. I've had a good week, we didn't do alot per say but the few things I did do, like going for dinner with my other friend Angie, are big things for me. I wasn't ill and I didn't faint! Success! Feeling quite bad at the moment but I expected it to be honest after such a charged week.
Both Angie and Alex have relatively new boyfriends and they both seem much happier, and both of the guys seem wonderful, genuinely caring guys. I'm so pleased for them, they both deserve happiness. :)
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So, I did go shopping this week! I've been very bad with my money and I'll be reaping the consequences for a good month and a half. Plus I did almost force Alex to throw herself out a window in Bristol cos she hates shopping, but she perserved and I'm thankful for her taking me and such. She's the bestest friend I could ever ask for. So much love! And next September we've been best friends for 10 years: a decade! Whoa! Talk about starting to feel your age!
But yes, shopping! I was after a new dress for the 24th of this month. My Grandparents are getting a blessing to celebrate their 50th wedding anniversary, and thus it means a church ceremony! Now of course, I do own enough clothes to have found something but me being me wanted something new. Of course if that failed then I'd delve into my wardrobe and work something out. I'm so fussy currently about prices that alot of really nice dresses fall flat. It makes me a very fussy consumer and therefore makes my job even harder! Also some current designs are just mind boggling!
For example, in the Topshop sale there was this beautiful blue and green floral dress. I have a bit of a spot spot for vintage looking florals so my eye was drawn and seeing the price tag at £10 I was intrigued! However, I did notice a weird design element, there was a triangle cut out the front where I assumed ones tummy would be. Determined to face my tummy demons I headed into the changing room with it.. now the dress fit perfectly, was a nice shape as well but the triangle cut out ruined it! Firstly, it was just below the bust and went down to where my rib cage ends. It did not look flattering. It looked silly, I was so disappointed with the design element as it ruined a perfectly good dress!
I don't mind the cut out designs that are coming out at the moment, the waist cut outs look slimming and quirky and I'll love to try a shoulder cut out to see what it looks like. I think on the right person they are perfect for summer and can be very flattering. The problem with this is that the designer needs to be careful where they place these cut outs as the aforementioned dress just looked stupid, lost it's shape and it's appeal. No wonder it's in the sale. :/
Two days later though in Primark I hit success! They have so many cute dresses at the moment I felt quite spoilt for choice! I know they aren't the best quality and to be honest I do look for something that looks decent. I won't buy basics from there for example because they end up shapeless and in the bin! (They also have a good selection of big chunky cardies and jumpers that had my itching for autumn.) I ended up with two choices, one was a navy dress with a white duck pattern and the other.. a body con skirt dress with a floaty chiffon top with OWLS! I have a bit of an obsession with owls, and I'll admit my decision was pretty much made before trooping over to the changing rooms!
The duck dress was so cute, a little short on me (the curse of being tall!) and at £10 to be honest if I did have the money I would have bought it. Sadly it wasn't to be.
The owl dress... perfect. The body-con style skirt makes me a little anxious as it draws attention to my tummy, I'm hoping a chunky tan belt and a week of very good eating with disguise it by next Friday! The dress in a size 10 fit perfectly, was a decent length and the vintage owl pattern had me practically taking my debit card out then and there!
I'm so pleased and at £13 (alot for me) for most people this is a bargin dress that can be adapted to different situations. Cocktails, movie, meal, office the list is endless paired with the right accessories and shoes! I adore the pattern as I mentioned before, and to be honest I could see this style not going out for a good while yet. Or at least I hope! It's not weird looking, and bar the tightness of the skirt it's quite conservative. The materials are light on top and a little thicker and heavier at the skirt which I prefer anyhow. I'm so pleased and so in love, though I have to wait another week til I can wear it! I'm almost jealous of my future self.
I also bought some pale skin coloured tights, one with a floral pattern the other with hearts, for £1 each. I also bought some knee high oxblood socks. I adore knee high socks and oxblood and other berry colours are going to be at the forefront this autumn, so get your hands on some quick! These were from Primark. Other purchases included some rouge henna hair dye from Lush (I dye my hair with henna and I love the Lush range!) and a white bra from New Look reduced in the sale from £14 to £5! I've been after a new bra as some of my older ones are getting out of shape and stretched and just old. This bra claimed to boost my bra size by two cups.. and oh my does it deliver! Gives me stunning cleavage and so of course really makes those lower cut tops do their job! ^^; I also bought some scrummy instant tea from Whittards flavoured with English berries. It's so summery and tastes wonderful hot and cold! I'm about to go make myself a cup now in fact..
So overall despite the excess spending it wasn't too horrific and I did get some good deals! I don't go out that often so a little madness is ok. Just have to be very good these next few weeks and concentrate on savings and bills.
On a final note! Anyone who likes my style or clothes in general please check out my
ebay. I'm horrifically poor and really need the help at the moment, everything is in very good quality and a bargin so keep checking back, even if there isn't anything atm you want. Thankyou little doves. :)
Apart from Phoebe's birthday I've been kind of low the last day or so. After fainting again yesterday doing a simple walking exercise at physio I've been feeling really downhearted. I was hoping the fainting was starting to become better but I've now fainted five times in five weeks, been sick from vertigo several times and even though the movement disorder is getting better I just feel so sad and deflated. I dunno, maybe I'll feel better in a few days and move on but I feel like I'm against this uphill struggle all the time. And hearing about how all my friends are getting these great job interviews or jobs, or how they're going out to have fun, or even how they can leave the house on their own makes things worse. I hate this, I'm fighting it as hard as I can but it's hard. It's one of the hardest things I'm having to do. I wish something good would happen, like loose some weight or something - I can't even succeed at that let alone anything else. Just looking in the mirror sometimes and seeing what a failure my life has become makes me want to scream or melt into nonexistence. Which of course is really selfish. I just can't win.
So, I've been planning this anniversary cake for sometime and as my first ever properly decorated cake I wanted to keep it simple and pretty. Obviously at 50 years gold was going to be a main colour and I decided to join that with ivory (I prefer the slight offwhite colour). I spent (what is to me) a fortune on this cake, at least £20! The edible gold paint, flowers and a new piping set were from Hobbycraft and the rest were standard supermarket baking ingredients. Though not
It's been a pretty quiet, dull two days since I last posted. I've spent most my time in bed reading, recovering from the intense exhaustion that seemed to have come over me. Feeling a little more alive today, still tired around the edges and have a busy night ahead! Mum's taking me to Hobbycraft in a bit to get my things for my Grandparents 50th Wedding Anniversary cake I'll be baking tomorrow, then we'll home have dinner and then we're dying each others hair. Mine's the harder since it's henna and I'll be sat around for 4 hours after with cling film around my head but it'll mean I can get some studying done. :)
I've started a new book as well, Jostein Gaarder's 'Sophie's World'. I was recommended it in sixth form in my philosophy class and just never could get a hold of the library copy. Imagine my excitement when at Bookends in Northern Ireland they had a beautiful hardback copy (which I swear is unread!) for 50p!! I'm really enjoying it at the moment, it's such a good refresher or starter for anyone looking at the history of philosophy. I did find over the last year at uni studying philosophy I lost some of the taste for it, I actually became quite bored. This book has already piped my interest again, my natural unsastified curiosity about the world we live in. Anyone who has an interest in philosophy should read this book as it's a fantastic introduction!
